soup and a sandwich

I am at the church tonight waiting for C&C to start and being very much aware that I am an extrovert! I am alone. I hate that I love being with people. And there are none! Dangit.
I always get jittery (spell check that!) right before a function that I am responsible for. It is a combination of things I think. It is the basic fact that it is easer to do nothing than something. It is that I always want the function to be great! It is that some people are difficult to be with and if you know that they will be there then you become anxious, at least I do. But it is also that with a church function, we are almost always going to “Bring it” when talking about God! At least we should be! If we are prepared then we have the opportunity to see some life change. Even if we are not as prepared God can choose to uses us. I would prefer to seek Gods will regarding what he would have us “Bring” to his children. I wonder how many times I have been in the room when someone is totally unprepared for what they need to do and God totally saved them. I have been there when I have not prepared well enough and had God come through loud and clear! I remember one bible study I did in the 10 minutes before we started at a youth group in sask. People were changed there and I was total crap! By Gods grace alone was the evening salvaged.
Tonight I am jittery because I want it to be great! Also I am hungry! That never helps. Maybe soup and a sandwich.